*music*
I lock myself away from civilisation with only a lil balcony as a mean of communication...
As the night approaches, routinely I would step out to greet the moon "evening!" and mesmerized by the flashing past memories, scene by scene, of you and me.
As I switch on the tv, with patience I listened to the dialogue of actors, wishing that those stories told would lead me to a proper answer...the love u want... I could not give...
Watching how our love turn bad, witnessed how love turned sour... only as a spectator.
I could never give u a future, mind as well give u back ur present,
a silently ended relationship could also be a mean to show care...
As tears fell, voice went coarse, maybe breakup is the best understanding I could give...
I gave u~
my last love and care, it turned out to be freeing u...Not being selfish holding u back from all the love u can get in trade for this ordinary piece of love.
Let this stained love slowly cleansed by the bleach of time...and in preparation of accepting another piece of love...
My last love and care is to call a break up~
Would never sweet talk my way out for ur forgiveness,
as love is just a freeway, with comers and goers...
My heart is just a writen signboard ... which says "awaiting."
As I tuned on to the radio, I listened to other's failure...accompanied by the sorrow winds of the night...
Signs of you being dependant writen on ur face...
felt heavy to push u away...
cant leave u easily...
As one who is leading a new love life tends to be fragile.
sure a lot of wrong ge la this translation.
he sang real fast with all the deep chinese words. how to translate wor?
seeing my chinese lvl is so low.
...
..
.
.
.
sigh...
lonesome.
Thursday, January 27, 2005
Monday, January 17, 2005
The Mark of Death
wonder what the mark of death is?
its a combination of the question mark and the exclamation mark.
also known as the Mark of Death *background plays the Dracula theme music with flashing lights, roaring thunder as backdrop*
never did i knew the power of this mark till i finally witness the power it posseses this very moment.
a simple mixture of "! & ?" = "Speak properly! U dont have to shout. I dont want to chat. NITE!"
...woah...
never did i knew... the simple combination of these 2 marks happens to be the seal which summons the slumbering goddess of war.
sigh...
sleep is best where she should be kept.
if u happen to be reading this?
i just hope to let u know... i'm sorry.
"?!" i was trying to express that i'm bragging...
but u got the wrong msg.
hmm... should add emoticons the next time we sms.
u know, a line could be read in so many different expressions.
the angry reading method.
the sobbing method.
the jolly way.
ahh... or the classic, robotic method.
every reading method could lead u into a different understanding of a simple sentence.
thus my all time favourite method of communication would definitely goes to the dying trend of "face to face conversation."
Alas... the phone was invented for the convenience of mankind.
never meant to distort the merit doings of men such as, socialising, talking face to face, tea (yum char).
now with the advancement of mobility in communication... understanding seems so hard to reach.
we talk so much on the phone, sms, msn, icq, mms, e-mail yet never before reach a stage of mutual understanding.
was it me... or was it u who never took time in understanding one another?
sigh...
sorry.
its a combination of the question mark and the exclamation mark.
also known as the Mark of Death *background plays the Dracula theme music with flashing lights, roaring thunder as backdrop*
never did i knew the power of this mark till i finally witness the power it posseses this very moment.
a simple mixture of "! & ?" = "Speak properly! U dont have to shout. I dont want to chat. NITE!"
...woah...
never did i knew... the simple combination of these 2 marks happens to be the seal which summons the slumbering goddess of war.
sigh...
sleep is best where she should be kept.
if u happen to be reading this?
i just hope to let u know... i'm sorry.
"?!" i was trying to express that i'm bragging...
but u got the wrong msg.
hmm... should add emoticons the next time we sms.
u know, a line could be read in so many different expressions.
the angry reading method.
the sobbing method.
the jolly way.
ahh... or the classic, robotic method.
every reading method could lead u into a different understanding of a simple sentence.
thus my all time favourite method of communication would definitely goes to the dying trend of "face to face conversation."
Alas... the phone was invented for the convenience of mankind.
never meant to distort the merit doings of men such as, socialising, talking face to face, tea (yum char).
now with the advancement of mobility in communication... understanding seems so hard to reach.
we talk so much on the phone, sms, msn, icq, mms, e-mail yet never before reach a stage of mutual understanding.
was it me... or was it u who never took time in understanding one another?
sigh...
sorry.
Friday, January 14, 2005
Men's Heart Good As Dog's Liver?
it's often said that men have a heart as good as a dog's liver. and that aint a compliment.
as what the chinese had in mind is to claim that we men are heartless and qualified to be compared with a life form lower than humankind.
i wish to disagree.
not all men are heartless and unfaithful.
we arent like dogs.
we dont treat, anyone that gives us food, really good like what dogs do.
not all guys craze for sex, like what dogs did. they get to have sex with just any female dog they see.
why are we being compared to dogs?
rubbish!
do not ever, ever, ever let me heart that ALL MEN are DOGS!!!
not all men are dogs!
what about women?
u dare say that all women are faithful?
u dare say that all women arent heartless like what u claimed men are.
ironically, more and more women are now equivalent to those, so called doggish guys.
and what about me?
stop pulling me into the pit of dogs.
i am not one of them!
i for one is faithful to love.
never before an intention to go unfaithful.
and i for one... will not have sex with a woman whom i do not love, one whom i have no feelings for no matter how pretty they are.
women, stop claiming that we are dogs.
we are not!
if being compared,
a woman could forget about their ex 10X's faster than a guy if they want to.
a woman could be 10X's more unfaithful when they chose to.
and many .... i meant MANY women does that.
so stop accusing the men.
at least not me!!!!!!!!
as what the chinese had in mind is to claim that we men are heartless and qualified to be compared with a life form lower than humankind.
i wish to disagree.
not all men are heartless and unfaithful.
we arent like dogs.
we dont treat, anyone that gives us food, really good like what dogs do.
not all guys craze for sex, like what dogs did. they get to have sex with just any female dog they see.
why are we being compared to dogs?
rubbish!
do not ever, ever, ever let me heart that ALL MEN are DOGS!!!
not all men are dogs!
what about women?
u dare say that all women are faithful?
u dare say that all women arent heartless like what u claimed men are.
ironically, more and more women are now equivalent to those, so called doggish guys.
and what about me?
stop pulling me into the pit of dogs.
i am not one of them!
i for one is faithful to love.
never before an intention to go unfaithful.
and i for one... will not have sex with a woman whom i do not love, one whom i have no feelings for no matter how pretty they are.
women, stop claiming that we are dogs.
we are not!
if being compared,
a woman could forget about their ex 10X's faster than a guy if they want to.
a woman could be 10X's more unfaithful when they chose to.
and many .... i meant MANY women does that.
so stop accusing the men.
at least not me!!!!!!!!
Sunday, January 09, 2005
Number 16 Lover
the lost of meaning in being persistant,
why shouldnt i be given a chance to determine who should gain a place in my heart?
on ur next attempt to chg ur partner, my name would be deleted from ur phone...
thus pls i beg of you not to come looking for me, the one who didnt get a good hold of ur heart.
come to think of the moment before,
i cant help of being silly, innocent as u might call it,
among the girls u were the only one who presented me a ring,
it turned out that "I love you most" from ur lips were just temporary.
and it happened to be a chg of my rank every 2 days in ur heart.
from 1 to 2, 4 to 12 it became more and more ridiculous through the progress of time...
why? how? did i ever became ur number 16 lover...
simply by walking in the street now, u can easily find a guy much more interesting and attractive than i am...
sometimes i just envy them so much and wish to be them,
to chg my appearance to start a new beginning with u.
i had always been a winner in the past,
how could i bare with this status of being a substitute in ur heart?
i have seen the peak of ur icy mountain, yet gradually slipping down to the pit of no return...
in seeing the future, my legs were shaking, heart filled with fear...
as i said before it would be an unregretable love...
ironically... i am to be taught a lesson now.
i turned humble, only wishes to be on the 2nd spot,
yet i would still feel the excitement of achievement,
who would have guessed that tolerating would lead from a drop of rank from the 1st runner up to the 2nd runner up...
everyone claimed that i allowed u to be flirtitious thus causing a fall to even a more ridiculous stage of rank 4, 5, 6 and 7 with no surprise at all...
my tolerance leads to ur cruelty which gave u the heart to push me to a neverending pit.
Joey Yung : - Number 16 Lover
my attempt of translating the one time famous Number 16 Lover that is shaking the HK music industry now.
i happened to hear this song on the radio today on my way to see my friends...
the song gave me flashbacks of what happened a month before.
i made a u-turn and made a stop in a nearby playground to finish the song.
slowly i reflect why am i acting like this, alone, in my car.
this appeared to be the theme song which my pet sis has chosen to end her relationship with her first real true love.
nights after nights i spent time in hoping i could help her out from the pit which her ex has thrown her into.
making sure she would forget every memory they made together.
she failed real bad.
she cant forget, nor feel less for him.
what am i complaining...
and why am i helping her to forget...
i can barely forget as well...
it just the 1st month of our break up.
sigh~
how am i to bare with the coming times...?
miss u...
why shouldnt i be given a chance to determine who should gain a place in my heart?
on ur next attempt to chg ur partner, my name would be deleted from ur phone...
thus pls i beg of you not to come looking for me, the one who didnt get a good hold of ur heart.
come to think of the moment before,
i cant help of being silly, innocent as u might call it,
among the girls u were the only one who presented me a ring,
it turned out that "I love you most" from ur lips were just temporary.
and it happened to be a chg of my rank every 2 days in ur heart.
from 1 to 2, 4 to 12 it became more and more ridiculous through the progress of time...
why? how? did i ever became ur number 16 lover...
simply by walking in the street now, u can easily find a guy much more interesting and attractive than i am...
sometimes i just envy them so much and wish to be them,
to chg my appearance to start a new beginning with u.
i had always been a winner in the past,
how could i bare with this status of being a substitute in ur heart?
i have seen the peak of ur icy mountain, yet gradually slipping down to the pit of no return...
in seeing the future, my legs were shaking, heart filled with fear...
as i said before it would be an unregretable love...
ironically... i am to be taught a lesson now.
i turned humble, only wishes to be on the 2nd spot,
yet i would still feel the excitement of achievement,
who would have guessed that tolerating would lead from a drop of rank from the 1st runner up to the 2nd runner up...
everyone claimed that i allowed u to be flirtitious thus causing a fall to even a more ridiculous stage of rank 4, 5, 6 and 7 with no surprise at all...
my tolerance leads to ur cruelty which gave u the heart to push me to a neverending pit.
Joey Yung : - Number 16 Lover
my attempt of translating the one time famous Number 16 Lover that is shaking the HK music industry now.
i happened to hear this song on the radio today on my way to see my friends...
the song gave me flashbacks of what happened a month before.
i made a u-turn and made a stop in a nearby playground to finish the song.
slowly i reflect why am i acting like this, alone, in my car.
this appeared to be the theme song which my pet sis has chosen to end her relationship with her first real true love.
nights after nights i spent time in hoping i could help her out from the pit which her ex has thrown her into.
making sure she would forget every memory they made together.
she failed real bad.
she cant forget, nor feel less for him.
what am i complaining...
and why am i helping her to forget...
i can barely forget as well...
it just the 1st month of our break up.
sigh~
how am i to bare with the coming times...?
miss u...
Thursday, January 06, 2005
Numb
i'm tired of being who u want me to be
feeling so faithless
lost under the surface
dunno what u're expecting of me
put under the pressure of walking in ur shoes...
everystep that i take... is another mistake to u
i've become so NUMB!
i cant feel u there...
i've become so TIRED!
so much more awake...
i'm becoming this...
all i want u to...
is be more like ME!
and be less like YOU!
cant u see that u're smothering me...
holding me too tightly...
afraid to lose control...
cause everything that u thought that i would be...
has fallen apart right in front of u...
everystep that i take, is another mistake to u!
and everysecond i waste... is MORE THAT I CAN TAKE!
i've become so NUMB!
i cant feel u there...
i've become so TIRED!
so much more awake...
i'm becoming this...
all i want u to...
is be more like ME!
and be less like YOU!
and i know....
i may end up failing too...
but i know...
u were just like me... with someone disappointed in u...
i've become so numb...
i cant feel u there...
i've become so TIRED!
so much more awake...
i'm becoming this...
all i want u to...
is be more like ME!
and be less like YOU!
feeling so faithless
lost under the surface
dunno what u're expecting of me
put under the pressure of walking in ur shoes...
everystep that i take... is another mistake to u
i've become so NUMB!
i cant feel u there...
i've become so TIRED!
so much more awake...
i'm becoming this...
all i want u to...
is be more like ME!
and be less like YOU!
cant u see that u're smothering me...
holding me too tightly...
afraid to lose control...
cause everything that u thought that i would be...
has fallen apart right in front of u...
everystep that i take, is another mistake to u!
and everysecond i waste... is MORE THAT I CAN TAKE!
i've become so NUMB!
i cant feel u there...
i've become so TIRED!
so much more awake...
i'm becoming this...
all i want u to...
is be more like ME!
and be less like YOU!
and i know....
i may end up failing too...
but i know...
u were just like me... with someone disappointed in u...
i've become so numb...
i cant feel u there...
i've become so TIRED!
so much more awake...
i'm becoming this...
all i want u to...
is be more like ME!
and be less like YOU!
Sunday, January 02, 2005
A New Chapter
Its the year 2005.
Those unhappy memories are meant to be forgotten.
Thus, let it be.
Let it be forgotten.
2005 marks a new chapter in my life.
New life, new resolutions and hopefully new friends.
Of course I would be most grateful if all new friends are girls.
Hehehe.
Its now 2a.m just finish watching Hong Kong Music Award Live on Astro Wah Lai Toi.
Just like how we forecasted (we as in, friends who follow on the trend of music) , Leo got what he deserved this year.
It's a pity that Leo Ku, aka Ku Kui Gei, only managed to get Favourite Song Title yet never even got the chance to get into the finalists of best male singer.
What a pity.
This year, he not only became on of the finalist but manage to pillage 2 other awards other than Favourite Song Title, also Best Male Singer and Favourite Singer.
For his Favourite Song Title award... this year goes to the song Ngoi Yu Seng for a simple chorus which totally expresses the feelings of lovers who contributed so much, yet all they get in return is a love less than those given to pets.
Totally love that song.
There goes again in the radio...
*music playing in background*Pit Choi Zhou Ching Yan, Zhou Chiek Mao Zhou Chiak Gau But Zhou Ching Yan.....
Happy Belated New Year.
Those unhappy memories are meant to be forgotten.
Thus, let it be.
Let it be forgotten.
2005 marks a new chapter in my life.
New life, new resolutions and hopefully new friends.
Of course I would be most grateful if all new friends are girls.
Hehehe.
Its now 2a.m just finish watching Hong Kong Music Award Live on Astro Wah Lai Toi.
Just like how we forecasted (we as in, friends who follow on the trend of music) , Leo got what he deserved this year.
It's a pity that Leo Ku, aka Ku Kui Gei, only managed to get Favourite Song Title yet never even got the chance to get into the finalists of best male singer.
What a pity.
This year, he not only became on of the finalist but manage to pillage 2 other awards other than Favourite Song Title, also Best Male Singer and Favourite Singer.
For his Favourite Song Title award... this year goes to the song Ngoi Yu Seng for a simple chorus which totally expresses the feelings of lovers who contributed so much, yet all they get in return is a love less than those given to pets.
Totally love that song.
There goes again in the radio...
*music playing in background*Pit Choi Zhou Ching Yan, Zhou Chiek Mao Zhou Chiak Gau But Zhou Ching Yan.....
Happy Belated New Year.
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